ohh ahh

Sometimes
when I lie in my bed at night
but sleep does not receive me

they race across my head in mischievous steps
giggling, laughing, some even smirking
throwing unwanted thoughts at me

I worry, I fear
I feel sad,
only sometimes happy.

Sometimes
I think I have it all figured out



only to realize when I wake up

that nothing has been solved.

Yet minutes still tick by
as reluctance keeps me under the covers

but when I step out of bed
I realize that I was not looking for a solution -

just courage.